TODAY I ASKED GOD

Today I asked God for unconditional love

And it seemed scaringly entitled to ask for something that I in abundance have

And my knees hit the dusty ground

As my hot tears smoked up its loose soil

Like raindrops

Only drying up so fast

Like a Kenyan summer

And my rusty whispers which like rocks that were from the slingshot that is my heart

Hit God’s ears

And I asked God to love and be loved

Today I asked the maker for unconditional love to cure my lonely soul

You see

I have been running

So fast yet on the same perimeter

Going round and round and round on the same square meter

Going back to the point where I begun

And today I learnt it is useless to run

So i asked the almighty for a son so I rest from the exhaustion caused by my flight from loneliness

I ASKED THE ALMIGHTY FOR A SON

To give life

To give my heart

For something worth dying for

As the holy word speaks of Solomon

The story of two mothers and a fallen child

An allegation of death and ownership so wild

Yet the mother

The joy of motherhood willing to forego

Just so the child, though in the arms of another would grow

I asked God for a son

So I too would feel the intensity that is sacrifice

And I analogized to the pain of David

Hoe he asked for pain, stark raving hurt instead of his son’s

His flesh and blood’s pain was his own

Cut him deeper than the sharpest sword

And I asked God for a son

So i feel another’s pain

To bring life to my existence

For fortnights I have wandered

Like a rudderless boat at sea drifting aimlessly to my inevitable demise

I sit and wonder

To whom will I be termed as dearly missed?

I asked God for a son

For I looked at everything under the sun

And found my worth would be found in a son.