Whispers of her soul

She is overwhelmed
she can't breathe
the pain in her chest feels like no other,
like someone stabbed her in the chest - only worse
like they kept her alive just so she can feel the excruciating pain
like they left her alone in a dark room
locked her inside starved of joy and bliss that morning sunshine brings
deprived of the beauty and peace stars at night bring
like they beat her up leaving her wounded and cold
like they stripped her in the middle of African winter
left her in cold desert night at the mercy of snakes and scorpions
like they - like puppet masters make her slap her self nonstop in the face
like she has nothing to live for yet she does
but grief, pain, anguish knows the darkness and deadends
she longs for brighter days
cries herself to sleep because her only relief is that she can whine
that they did not take away
the one thing that makes her
so human
emotion
feelings
she prays for brighter days
no one knows when they will come
but one thing's for sure
nothing lasts forever
clinging on to the hope that it will all end
is what keeps her alive.

My Immortal

There are days when I think of you
and the deceit and shameful defeat
that my heart succumbed to
I cannot stand
thus i am filled with such rage
like an airhead graduate on minimum wage
I whine
but there are days when i think of you
and all i want to is to feel you
right beside me
then i am beside
myself with rage
how can i still feel you
how can i still feel for you
how can i shed a tear
for what i felt for over a year
past
dead and gone yet
immortal in my heart
though it was hurt
for you it still yearns
though my skin thickened
from the lessons learnt
about your love and its non-existence
like aliens on earth
for your touch
your caress it still yearns
why cannot we love
why could we not have love
and the wise ones talk of the broken road
leading us to such happy ever after aboard
yet that light at the end of that underground road
i am blind to
or is it a blind fold
but i beg not to blame you
yet i do
why would you touch me?
why would i let you?
why would you love me so good?
and how would i say no without sounding so rude?
but i wouldn't
i couldn't because i thought it a reciprocation
of my deep affection
I thought it a paradise and those wise men
not so wise
actually felt it a paradise
but then i know now
i was not as wise
i was stupid
pranked by cupid
so these days i think of you
and i know my feelings were true
then i think of them untrue
and i wish i could see you
maybe my heart could whisper
and help me through this unending dilemma
because i said i loved you
not like i do
for rockbands and shoes
but this was new
but i wouldn't know
i'm a mere mortal
and i will never know
because you refuse
you refuse to comply
and i wouldn't understand why
i too do not know
i do not know
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